no one has to hear the sound of people laughing at their fears.
& the ocean & sun are always there to make you happy if you're feeling scared of the darkness.
18 may 2009
there are a lot of things on my mind lately, but i cannot seem to formulate them into coherency.
- the desires of the heart are so fleeting. not even 2 months ago, i was wanting a job so badly. now, i seriously am super overwhelmed & drained & would be happy to quit today. what does that say about me? probably nothing more than that i am human & shortsighted sometimes, but is that an excuse? God gave me what i was praying for, & it's like i am throwing it back in His face. "thank you for giving me exactly what i wanted, but i'm finished with this. i got what i wanted so i don't need it anymore."
- i really like flags. some of you have probably heard about my childhood obsession with them, & i guess it still lingers. kevin & landon have talked about how they are not very patriotic people. i can be patriotic to any country if i see their flag.
even the saudi flag - which says "there is no god but allah & muhammad is his prophet" & has the sword to signify how very serious they are about what the script says - it's so epic looking! saudi arabia is the only country where it is illegal for women to drive. why don't we hear about that more often? oh yeah, they have oil.
- "exotic" is a relative term. tropical wedding bouquets are considered exotic. i find bouquets with peonies & freesia & tulips & daffodils to be much more exotic looking than ones with birds of paradise, orchids & anthuriums because i am not used to seeing these flowers. so would porn with white people be considered "exotic pornography" in africa?
- german traffic signals turn yellow before red & also green. this is so efficient & smart to me.
- i am pretty much convinced hawaii is magical.
27 may 2009
- i got another job lined up for when i get back from tuscany in august. it pays more & has very flexible hours, & i can still ride my bike there! Gott ist doch sehr gut immer!
- i love meeting people. my favorite thing about germany is the people. though that can be said about most places, i suppose - your hometown, a crappy job, etc. people are created in God's image, so there is value & worth in everyone. all of humanity is in the same boat as you. which is easily said, but not so easily remembered. & everyone has a story.
18 may 2009
there are a lot of things on my mind lately, but i cannot seem to formulate them into coherency.
- the desires of the heart are so fleeting. not even 2 months ago, i was wanting a job so badly. now, i seriously am super overwhelmed & drained & would be happy to quit today. what does that say about me? probably nothing more than that i am human & shortsighted sometimes, but is that an excuse? God gave me what i was praying for, & it's like i am throwing it back in His face. "thank you for giving me exactly what i wanted, but i'm finished with this. i got what i wanted so i don't need it anymore."
- i really like flags. some of you have probably heard about my childhood obsession with them, & i guess it still lingers. kevin & landon have talked about how they are not very patriotic people. i can be patriotic to any country if i see their flag.
even the saudi flag - which says "there is no god but allah & muhammad is his prophet" & has the sword to signify how very serious they are about what the script says - it's so epic looking! saudi arabia is the only country where it is illegal for women to drive. why don't we hear about that more often? oh yeah, they have oil.
- "exotic" is a relative term. tropical wedding bouquets are considered exotic. i find bouquets with peonies & freesia & tulips & daffodils to be much more exotic looking than ones with birds of paradise, orchids & anthuriums because i am not used to seeing these flowers. so would porn with white people be considered "exotic pornography" in africa?
- german traffic signals turn yellow before red & also green. this is so efficient & smart to me.
- i am pretty much convinced hawaii is magical.
27 may 2009
- i got another job lined up for when i get back from tuscany in august. it pays more & has very flexible hours, & i can still ride my bike there! Gott ist doch sehr gut immer!
- i love meeting people. my favorite thing about germany is the people. though that can be said about most places, i suppose - your hometown, a crappy job, etc. people are created in God's image, so there is value & worth in everyone. all of humanity is in the same boat as you. which is easily said, but not so easily remembered. & everyone has a story.
posted by ashley. at 1:16 AM
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